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Wed, 26 May 2004 21:02:55 GMT

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Wed, 26 May 2004 00:34:56 GMT

I'm very upset. Math exam is tomorrow. I have like 8 things I have to do//finish for geography. I can't possibly wait another 2 weeks for school to be over. I wish I was going to Florida like the day school gets out. And not coming back till I go back to school in September. I need a break. A very long break. I think I'm gonna have to rearrange this with my pops. Also, I STILL don't know if I'm moving back to Florida or staying here next year. I'm almost positive I'm staying here, but I think when I go back to Florida for the summer I'm gonna be like "well fuck that I'm not going back" or something. Any bets? Why do teachers pile on all this fucking work at the end of the year? That's so retarded. Like in geography, we have the summative due a week from Thursday, a bunch of article summaries due the Monday after that, and he's still giving us fucking homework. But fuck that I'm not doing any of it. I haven't even started my summative. Sucks to be a slacker. In french our huge exam is on June 3/June 8. We have our summative report thing due next Monday. At least those are the only 2 classes I have to worry about. Well, the math test and everything, but...Iono I don't really give a shit about that anyways. And my brother couldn't come at a worse time. Seriously, I love him and I'm happy he's coming, but it's like right in the middle of all this stuff being due! God I'm about to rip my hair out. Ok...starting tomorrow I'm just gonna come home and do homework for like the next 2 weeks. I've said that so many times, but I have to do it this time. Ugh. I'll try to update sometime, but Iono...we'll see. Late.

Tue, 25 May 2004 02:04:01 GMT

Texas Chainsaw Massacre is a scary moofie. Expecially considering it's a true story and the guy was never caught. I'm glad I don't live in that fucking crazy ass town though. Last night I watched that alone. In the dark at like 2 in the morning. I was digging my nails in to my own arm lol.
This weekend has been super boring. Saturday wasn't so bad, but yesterday and today couldn't of been worse. Oh well, it's almost over now. Haha Rock Star Poser.
Which reminds me, Tweedie, you hurt my feelings and I hate you. :)
ROCK STAR IS ON TV VISION. MUST GO WATCH IT!!1!1!!!11
Update later.

Mon, 24 May 2004 22:49:45 GMT

This song never EVER fails to make me cry. A whole damn lot. This is regoddamndiculous.

I am too connected to you.

Mon, 24 May 2004 18:27:16 GMT

Andrew hurry up and get home. I'm so bored, I have resorted to...dun dun dun....surveys. Argh.

Name: Kelsey
Nickname: Kels, Kelsa Connor, K-Bo, Toots, etc..
Birthday: Mat 8
Birthplace: Daytona Beach

=Now=

Current mood: Bored and kind of tired.
Current music: One Eight Seven - Senses Fail
Current taste: Twizzlers.
Current hair: Wet (shower)
Current clothes: Cheer shorts & a white tank top.
Current annoyance: I stubbed my toe and now it hurts.
Current smell: Febreze :D
Current thing I ought to be doin: Geography summative
Current windows open: This one, Kazaa, msn, & aim
Current desktop picture: A sunset on the beach <3
Current favorite band: Hm...Placebo, HIM, Thursday, Modest Mouse, Motion City Soundtrack, etc.
Current book: HAHA
Current cd in stereo: Full Collapse - Thursday, Everywhere & His Nasty Parlour Tricks - Modest Mouse, Razorblade Romance - HIM
Current crush: Andrew I guess
Current favorite celeb: Uh...I don't know...
Current hate: Hilary Duffle bag

=Do You=

Smoke?: On the occasion
Do drugs?: On the occasion
Have sex?: Not yet
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: I don't have dreams usually.
Remember your first love?: I do.
Still love him/her?: I'm sure I do..
Read the newspaper?: Nah.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: Probably.
Believe in miracles?: No.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Doubt it.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Most others.
Consider love a mistake?: Not completely.
Like the taste of alcohol?: No.
Have a favorite candy?: Um...Twix.
Believe in astrology?: Nah.
Believe in magic?: No.
Believe in god?: Definitely not.
Have any pets: Nope.
Go to or plan to go to college: Yes...Only because my brother told me to go so I can just party 24/7. Hah.
Have any piercings?: 5 in my ears.
Have any tattoos?: Not yet.
Hate yourself: Not really.
Have an obsession?: Maybe O.o
Have a secret crush?: No.
Do they know yet?: If they knew, it wouldn't be a secret crush, would it? I don't have one anyways.
Have a best friend?: Sure.
Wish on stars?: Yes.
Care about looks?: Somewhat.

=Love life=

First crush: Timothy in preschool. *drool* lol.
First kiss: This kid Jamie at a party *bleh*
Ever been in love?: Yes.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: I believe in lust at first sight.
Do you believe in "the one?": I believe you can have more than one "the one"s.
Describe your ideal significant other: Someone I can have fun with even when we just sit around and do nothing. Someone who can make me laugh. Pretty eyes always helps :)

=Juicy stuff=

Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: Yes.
Have you ever been intoxicated?: Yes.
Favorite place to be kissed?: Hm...neck//shoulders...or you know, mouth.
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": Sort of...Erin almost caught me and Romeo on the beach hah.
Are you a tease?: Haha only when somebody's been drinking milk >:O
Shy to make the first move?: Nah.

=Word association=

Rubber: Condom.
Rock: Roll.
Green: Lettuce.
Wet: Rain.
Cry: Uh...crying?
Peanut: s make your erection harder.
Hay: is for horses.
Cold: Snow.
Steamy: sex.
Fast: Furious.
Freaky: Kinky?
Rain: Making out *daydreams*
Bite: Sex.
fuck: Me. Haha.
Blow: Penis.
Religion: Burn the church.

--APPEARANCE:--
Hair: Light-ish brown, short-ish.
Eyes: Brown.
Height: 5'3" I think.

--LAST THING YOU:--
Bought: Flip flops.
Ate & Drank: Ate=Twizzlers, Drank=water.
Read: Cosmo.
Watched on tv: Dr. Phil hah.

--EITHER / OR:--
club or houseparty: Houseparty.
beer or cider: Beer I guess...both kind of suck.
drinks or shots: Shots.
cats or dogs: Cats.
single or taken: Taken :)
pen or pencil: Pen.
gloves or mittens: Mittens.
food or candy: Food.
cassette or cd: CD...does anybody ever choose cassette??
coke or pepsi: Yuck..neither.
this or that: That.

--WHO DO YOU WANT TO:--
kill: No one at the moment...maybe Gary...yeah Gary.
get really wasted with: Gerardo and Andrew lol.
look like: Uh...myself?
be like: Me..
avoid: Certain people.

--LAST PERSON YOU--
talked to: My mo.
hugged: Don't know.
instant messaged: Gerardo.
kissed: Andrew.

--WHERE DO YOU--
eat: Where ever the fuck I want.
cry: Uh...where ever I am when I get sad.
wish you were: Port Orange//Daytona//St. Augustine.

--HAVE YOU EVER...--
Dated one of your best friends? No.
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? For sure.
Drank alcohol? Yes.
Done drugs? Yes.
Broken the law? Yes.
Run away from home? Nope.
Broken a bone? Yes.
Played Truth Or Dare? Who hasn't?
Kissed someone you didn't know? My first kiss with Jamie...I just met him that night, but I at least knew him a little. Iono..
Been in a fight? Sure.
Come close to dying? Yeah.

--WHAT IS:--
The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: Hah probably Max Webster :x
Your bedroom like?: Gray walls, red//black bed, uh...messy.
Your favorite thing for breakfast? Bagel.
Your favorite restaurant?: Applebees, Chili's, Lone Star...you know, all those one's on Dunlawton hah.

--RANDOM QUESTIONS--

What's on your bedside table?: Lamp, clock, phone.
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?: I don't.
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?: Green Mile.
If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?: Hm...I'd get all my fat chopped off hah.
What is your biggest fear?: Scary stalker guys. *shudder*
What feature are you most insecure about?: Uh...I don't know really...maybe my stomache.
Do you ever have to beg?: Only when Tweedie doesn't tell me his secrets.
Are you a pyromaniac?: No.
Do you have too many love interests?: No.
Crushes? No.
Do you know anyone famous?: Nope.
Describe your bed: White fluffy blanket, red & black sheets, 10 red & black pillows...uh...you can turn it into a couch if you want. Hooray for day beds :D
Spontaneous or plain?: Spontaneous.
Do you know how to play poker?: Nope.
What do you carry with you at all times?: Keys, eyeliner, cell phone.
How do you drive?: Fast & furious hah.
What do you miss most about being little?: Pretty much everything. Being carefree and thinking boys were gross lol.
Are you happy with your given name?: Sure.
How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?: $2000
What color is your bedroom?: Gray, black, red, white.
What was the last song you were listening to?: Touch - Bright Eyes.
Have you ever been in a play?: Yes.
Who are your best friends?: Kadey, Sam, Christie, Erin, Andrew.
Do you talk a lot?: When I'm drunk.
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?: I like myself but I sure in the hell don't believe in myself.
Do you think you're cute?: Ew god, no. I HATE when people call me cute damnit.
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?: Sometimes.
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?: Uh...somewhat.
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?: Friends I guess. I don't know.
What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands?: Gay guys are cute as hell...lesbians are kind of gross I think.

And if my lungs still let me breathe, would you be there for me?

Sun, 23 May 2004 20:47:52 GMT

Well this is a really fucking boring day. I'm suppose to be fishing and having a super great time with Andrew right now. But my mom's a huge slut and wouldn't let me go to the cottage with him. Argh.
I want to do somethinggggg.
Haha earlier I was soo damn bored so I decided to be an idiot and I did a back flip off my bed. It was so fun! So then I did it like 80 more times. Then I got a head ache so I had to stop. I hit my foot on the fan a couple times and rolled my ankle about 9 times when I landed. But it's all good. I had fun :D
If I had money, I'd be out shopping right now. But I spent it all yesterday. Looks like I might be babysitting tonight :O
I can't wait till summer. CAN NOT WAIT.
I think it's gonna rain. Maybe not, but it kind of looks like it out side.
This is ghey. I'll update later if anything exciting happens, but don't count on it.

Betty can't quit carving question marks in my wrist, how come we're so alone?

Sun, 23 May 2004 04:23:43 GMT

I'm a really bad golfer. Golfist? Golfologist. Anyways, I suck.
Yeah...I went to the driving range with Andrew today. Then we played mini golf. Definitely made me miss Go Kart City hah. I love that place.
We left at like 9:30, missed like 3 busses, etc., etc. I swear every time I do something with that kid busses drive right by us! It's all good though I had fun. My mo came and got us sometime around 11, drove Andrew home, came here and I must of peed for like an hour. I love that feeling :D
Well...nothing else to say except, Tweedie get your ass on msn, I figured out a way to tell you.
I have peektures :D

These are reeeaaallllllly shitty quality, but I had to take pictures of pictures, so you know how it is...Anywho, there of me & Kadey at my house in Florida around X-Mas.

Stuff I drew...explodingdog.com inspired hah.

That's all folks...have a fantastic night :D

Does your concience bother you? Tell the truth.

Sat, 22 May 2004 21:48:55 GMT

Tanning again today. Then shopping. I got flip flops. There brown and they look like Pat's Rainbow ones that I love. I wonder if they have Rainbow stuff up here. I doubt it...oh well.
Other than that, it's been a damn boring day.
I want it to rain. Then I want someone to make out with in the rain.
Omg...somebody call me I want to go do something.
Gerardo, I think I'm ready to burn one down with you now lol.
Tweedie, tell me, because now your driving me insane!
I miss the southland.

Sat, 22 May 2004 01:25:36 GMT

Holler to the new Emogame. I beat it in 30 minutes <3

Everyone knows the last toes are always the coldest to go

Fri, 21 May 2004 22:55:16 GMT

Today was a pretty swell day. I got a drive to school cuz my mo didn't go to work till like lunch. We played soccer in gym. That was funny. Fatima tripped some girl and she like yelled in her face, so Fatima told on her haha. There was also alot of kicking and I have bruise from the ball smacking the side of my leg. Math was boring as any other day. Our exam is on Wednesday. I think I'll do fine, but just the fact that it's a final exam is freaking me out. Lunch, me & Andrew just sat around, Jordan came and gave me Lindsay's potawhawha. In french me, Marwa, Sarah, Mohammed, & some Chinese guy played Chinese checkers hah. I think you can guess who won that one...damn Chinks. Watched some stupid movie in geography. After that I was walking to my locker & Jordan came and took the weed back to go give it to Lindsay. Then I ran in to Lindsay and she was like "WHAT?!" so...I dunno. Sneaky Jordan...
I'm suppose to be at Kimber's having a super awesome time right now with the sexy ladies, but I had to baby sit till 10. Which is what I'm doing at this very moment. This sucks. Baby sitting should be illegal I swear. God damn kids. At least I'm getting paid, so I shouldn't be complaining. Wuh'eeeva.
Long weekend this weekend. Gotta find something to do.
Tweedie, hurry up and think of a "way" to tell me. Please. :)
Well, Imma go watch Harry Potter with the chits. God just kill me now. *cries*

I know you well enough to know you never loved me

Thu, 20 May 2004 23:33:27 GMT

There's a really huge bug in my room and I just spent like 20 minutes screaming and trying to figure out what to do with it. I ended up putting a cup on top of it. I figure it'll be dead in a couple days, then I can just...throw it away. Lemme tell ya...this thing is HUGE.
Now I'm really bored. Today was another one of those "sit around and space out" kind of days.
In gym, I saw stars. You know how like everybody always says they see stars when they pass out or something? Yeah well today I actually saw them. It was so weird...they were like falling stars and I made wishes on them haha. Then I was like looking at them too much and I tripped and fell on my face. Funny, funny.
After school, I teased Andrew lol. It was tons of fun. Also I found out that he has a really little sex drive. And mine is really big.
Come on girl, schfifty five!
Last night I had a dream that me, Lindsey, Lindsay, Andrew, Robyn, Tweedie, and a bunch of other people went on a trip. I didn't know where we were going but we ended up at Ocean Walk. So I was all excited and I called Kori and Erin and Spic and Kyle and they all came and we took the Kanucks on a tour of Daytona. Haha it was crazy. But when I woke up I was like "DAMMIT".
Anyways, Imma go eat cuz...I'm hungry. Late.

Thu, 20 May 2004 01:28:17 GMT

I really have nothing to update about, but Tweedie told me to.
Today was an extremely boring day. I was really quiet in geography for once cuz I had alot of shit on my mind. I wish I could write about it in here, but I don't want to. Yes...
I just got home from tanning. My ass is burned :( it hurts.
Kyle is hot. He's taking me some place nice when I go to Florida. Because I love him. So much. :D
Ugh all our exams are coming up, along with summatives and everything else. Argh. I hate this whole concept of "school".
Only 8 more days till Pat comes up here :D I am excited.
I feel tan. I'm really not, but I can think whatever I want. God, this is random.
Friday night, sleeping at Kimber's with Lindsey & Lindsay. Should be fun.
Anywho...I'm gonna quit boring you with my random nonsense. Update later <3

Tue, 18 May 2004 23:05:46 GMT

What the fuck. I swear the singer from The Darkness must be the ugliest man I've ever seen in my lifetime. He's disgusting. And now they have another video out? Jesus christ...
Rain makes my hair curly as hell. It sucks. I use to like rain, but not so much anymore.
People are seriously pissing me off this week. About the whole Tweedie & me thing. They mostly just make fun of him for it, but it's annoying. God damn kids.
I like that new song by Seether with Amy Lee. It's pretty good.
Wow. This is a pretty pointless entry. I'm gonna make a new layout thing because I am just that bored. Late.

9 More Days :D

Tue, 18 May 2004 00:16:50 GMT

Haha Andrew got his hair cut. According to Chad, it's still not short enough though. I say he should just shave it off.
I have had so much shit on my mind lately. It's not good stuff either. It's all like...secret Tweedie stuff haha. Shit, shit, shit.
I went to Loblaws today and saw so many people there. I saw little Kevin, and Tyler that can't grow hair, and I chilled with Sidiqui for a while. He is one crazy kid. I wanna work at Loblaws with him. That would be sweet.
Also, I learned how to play Beer by Reel Big Fish on bass today. I f'n love that song. I'm getting into all this ska nonsense again. What can I say? If you grew up with my brother, you'd like it too. I think on June 17, I'm definitely gonna have to take a trip to Montreal to go see them...along with Catch 22 and Big D and the Kid's Table. That would be a pretty awesome show, I must say. I'll get Jordan to go cuz I know he likes Big D.
So I just got pics from my pops of me & Kizzle Dee at Christmas time. I fucking miss my long hair, holy shit. I wish I could scan the pics, but I have no scanner...so too bad.
I've watched Haggard so much since Morgey got it for me. I swear I know every line now lol. Every time they show Raab in the shower singing in that fucking retarded voice I honestly fall on the ground laughing. But it's not the "HAHAH" laugh...it's the "omg I'm laughing so hard, no sound is coming out" laugh. And that's the best kind hah. I love that movie.
Um...I don't think I have anything else to say. Update later <3

PS (Tweedie get on msn so we can exchange secrets :P)

In joy and sorrow, my home's in your arms

Sun, 16 May 2004 22:42:34 GMT

I miss Campbell so much. I was just looking in the year book and I miss all the little 7th graders (I guess 8th graders now) and the gross cafeteria, and the ghetto neighborhood and everything. Speaking of Campbell, does anybody know what happened to Caitlyn Pageau? I haven't heard about her in forever. Maybe she died? But yeah...I miss Fat Matt and like our whole gym class and how we had the WK Posse. Anyone that was in the WK Posse...who's gym class was I even in? Cuz I sure in the hell don't remember. I barely even remember any of the good times we had now. But I do remember one of the last days of school we had that huge year book signing thing and I was drawing smiley faces on everybody and I drew one on Taylor's arm and he flicked me in the head. Haha. I just miss being there. I hated that school so much while I was going there, but it really wasn't that bad. I am glad that there's no more Mrs. Kerney with her damn slow blinks and her crack scoop thumb nails haha. Whoa...I don't even remember why Erin's mom transferred her to Creekside either. What the hell...I have the worst memory cuz that was like the biggest gossip ever at the time haha. Kay nevermind it was because of Romeo. That fucking ass hole. God what a dick...I seriously hate that kid. God...everybody changed so much since like last year. I wish I still talked to Matt Shelton though...and I wish I wasn't such a fucking bitch to Caitlyn all the time. But...it's all good. Now were all in high school and that's no fun at all.
Yeah...this was a pretty pointless entry. Just trying to take up time so I don't have to do my geography homework. But if I don't do it eventually, I just might fail that class. So I must go do that. Late.

Sun, 16 May 2004 03:35:00 GMT

Yeah so I'm in trouble now for the stupidest shit ever.
Somebody got my mo's pin number thing or something and bought $7000 worth of stuff from like Future Shop & Best Buy and stuff in the past couple days. Of course she thinks it was me. God knows how I would ever spend $7000 in like 2 days, but she's on crack anyways. So yeah...she's like spazzing out now trying to figure out what the hell happened and she still thinks I did it. Ghey.
I'm very mad at Tweedie right now. Because he lied to me. Then he expects me to tell him a huge secret and he won't even tell me his that I've been trying to figure out for like a week. Dick.
I need a mack...which is weird considering I have a boyfriend. But...yeah shit is weird.
Gerardo: My mom stole the computer from me so I didn't see your question till you were offline anyways. But to answer your question, yes I definitely would lol.
All right well I'm off to...Iono do something...late.

11 Days Lindsay! 11 Days!

Sun, 16 May 2004 00:35:37 GMT

School was extremely boring yesterday. At lunch we went to Giant Tiger and me, Lindsey, & Lindsay got these megaphone things. We had tons of fun with those. In geography we watched the end of Twister and when that was done we still had like 45 minutes left in the period. So I went to the window and talked to Jamie cuz he was outside playing soccer. Er he was suppose to be but he wasn't so we talked. I had to throw him my megaphone though cuz I couldn't hear him from the second floor. Mr. Neufeld showed me his sexy tattoo. He's the coolest teacher ever. After school me, Lindsey, Lindsay, & Jordan were waiting for the bus and Andrew & Jew were sitting on a bench like behind the stop. Their bus came and Andrew just like...waved at me so I thought he was mad at me. But I guess he wasn't so that doesn't really matter. Jordan went to the skatepark and the rest of us came to my home and dropped all our shit off. Then we were going shopping downtown. Omg when we were waiting for the bus some lady in a wheel chair started talking to us about Lindsay's shirt. She told us our idea's looked stupid and she was being "really freaking honest". Haha what a kook. Anyways, we got downtown and walked around. It was fun. With the TINY tampons and the bong shopping. Haha we found these awesome keychain pipes and we were definitely gonna get some but then we saw the damn sign that said you have to be 19 or w/e. So I remembered that my brother's coming in 11 days so we got super excited. Seeing as he's a huge stoner and everything, he'll buy us some :D. So then we went back to my house, got our stuff and went to Lindsey's. Lindsay left and we met up with Kimber & Amber on the way. We were all planning on going to a bush party at the Blackburn skatepark, but that didn't work out so well. So we got to Lindsey's, Amber had to leave and Lindsay came back. We set up the tent in the backyard and chilled. We decided we'd sneak out later to go to the bush party and we wanted to drink a little before we left. So we got some raspberry wine, nasty beer, Kahlua, & some other SHIT that was 40% but it tasted like FUCK lol Lindsey. Me and Kimber both chugged some of the 40% stuff and almost puked it was soo sick. Yeah so I got a head ache from that. Then we snuck out, we had to go through the NCC to get to the party and while we were there everybody decided to pop a squat right in the middle of the feild thing lol. Then we walked to the skatepark, there were some people by the baseball thing but we couldn't tell who they were seeing as it was like 12:30 and pitch black. Then we heard a woo hoo from the forest and we walked back there. A rabbit jumped out at us and scared the shit out of me and Lindsay. I rolled my ankle trying to run away haha. It hurt. Only Dylan's brother and some fat guy were there...we were too late. Everybody already left and smoked all the weed. I almost cried. So did Lindsay. Then me and Kimber got scared cuz they all looked like they were gonna rape us haha so we left. Came back to Lindsey's & slept. We all woke up at 5:30, I still had a head ache so me & Lindsey went to get me some pills. Went back to the tent and slept till 10:30. Woke up, made disgusting french toast and omelets. Yeah...we're pretty shitty cooks. Then we watched some show with Lindsay's friend in it and everybody left. I came home, showered cuz I felt dirty as hell, and sat around. I'm so tired right now. My hair's so silky...I guess cuz I used some random shampoo I found in the bathroom. Oh well it's hot. I wanna go to Best Buy and get Velvet Goldmine but my mom hasn't been home like all day to take me anywhere. Bitch wouldn't even pick me up from Lindsey's. Stupid cunt face. Anywho, Imma go find something to do. Late.

"I will kill your face. So hard core." - Valooooo

Fri, 14 May 2004 00:00:00 GMT

Yeah so yesterday I don't remember what happened at school. I know I didn't go to 1st or 2nd period though. I slept in alot. Yeah then I went to school at lunch and went to the afternoon classes I guess. After school I went shopping. I had like $250 and now I only have $70. I got 3 cds (all Nirvana. That's right.), a skirt, shorts, and capris x2. I was gonna get a bathing suit at American Eagle, but no. So then I guess we left.
Today I went to school in the morning. There was like zero people there because of the band trip or w/e to Toronto. In math we just messed around on computers. I hurt Tweedie! That's an accomplishment because he thinks he's like immortal or something and he can never get hurt. But I pinched the devil part of his arm and he almost cried he said lol. Oh yeah Morgey got me Haggard for my birthday present :D I was so happy. I gave him a big hug. Anywho, at lunch I went to the skate park//Giant Tiger. Then Andrew wanted to be late cuz he had a caf or something so I waited like the good girlfriend that I am. But then I was gonna be like 15 minutes late for french cuz I walk slow as hell. So I just went home. I was happy though cuz I got to watch Haggard! So yeah I went home, watched Haggard, ate Mac & Cheese, then at the end of school I went back so I could go do something with someone. I ended up going to Blackburn with Lindsey & Lindsay. We went to Kimber's house and waited for her to get there. That was funnah. Then she got there, we went inside and Kimber ate stir fry cuz she's Asian :P. Then we all made plans of how tomorrow night were gonna sleep at Lindsey's and drink all night. Were sleeping in a tent in the back yard haha. Then we walked to the skate park to go chill with people. Lindsay had to babyshit so she left along the way. So we just chilled there with everybody. After a while Lindsey & Kimber left. Sammy is the cutest damn kid that ever lived. Argh he's so little and cute and he's a better skater than Andrew lol. And he grabbed my boob haha. He's so cute. Yeah so then me & Andrew left, I was gonna play on swings till he finished eating and get my mo to pick me up or something but it sarted to rain alot so I went to his habitat. Then my mo came and we went home. Got in shit for skipping again today, but it's all good now. Then I had to clean cuz today was our "cleaning day". My mo's a doucheface and she doesn't let me clean for like a week. Then she picks some random day and we clean everything. It's so annoying cuz I hate dirty houses. And she won't even let me clean a dish. Dick head. Anyways, now I'm just sitten here chillen talking to my Kori and my Cara.
All right well Imma go watch Haggard again cuz...I CAN! hahahahahaa.
Tweedie: Tell me the stuff that's been on your mind! Please! I will do anything!
Update later <3

Wed, 12 May 2004 00:57:08 GMT

Me and Kori talk about some weird stuff.
popwooD4: why would a girl want a guy to finger her =\
doublenickle109: uh cuz it feels good?
popwooD4: obviously she wants a dick in her...not a finger
doublenickle109: lol
doublenickle109: unless shes like "marmarmar im not ready to have sex. stick your finger in my bagina"
popwooD4: lmao
And that was in the course of like 2 minutes. Imagine the possibility of what could happen when we talk for like 3 hours a day. IMAGINE! I love that kid :D
Anywho...I talked to my mo & pops for like 2 hours after I came down from my high. And I think we decided that Imma stay here for next year. I'm still comin down there for the summer but on like July 15 or something (around there) till whenever you folks go back to school. Someone inform me on when that is. I love all you guys down there more than my left boob, but yanno...you gotta do what you gotta do. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry!
When I got home today after I updated before I went and layed out on that hill by my house in a tank top and shorts. It was so hot and nice out. Argh I love this weather.
All right well Imma go talk to my Kori some more. Just wanted to inform you children on the plans. Late.

Isn't that just spit in your face, kick you in the crotch fantastic?!

Tue, 11 May 2004 21:42:53 GMT

I've only smoked once the whole time I've been in Canada and that time it was laced with acid and I like died. But today was a whole different story. I didn't even feel like smoking but it was peer pressure! I swear.
Anywho, today was a semi okay day. Iono school was pretty boring. Me and Lindsay decided that on Friday during lunch we're gonna smoke and then just go back to school. Sounds like a challenge to moi. Hah. In french, we played french Life hahah it was soo confusing. Wuh'eeeva. After school me, Lindsey, Lindsay, Andrew, & Leigh went to the skate park. After like 1½ hours Mike got there, Lindsey cut his ass and we went on with our day. Lindsay was off with Jordan smoking so I went over there and chilled. Andrew left after a while, we all chilled, then Chadwick whipped out another joint. So we burnt one down. At 4:20. Haha we had alot of laughs. Chad's orgasm face, the bagina juice, Chad peeing in a cone, "Oh man I just proteined!" etc. I had fun. Then we all left. Me, Lindsey, Lindsay, & Jo'd waited for the busses. Toot toot. I mowed the lawn for a little bit and it looked all wonky. It was just like a circle of barely any grass. Then all our busses came. Me & Jo'd got on a 2 and he ditched me for some other chick :(. But then I was standing next to this guy that looked JUST like Kurt Cobain. I couldn't stop staring at him hahah. I've seen him on the bus a couple times but holy shit you do not understand this guy had the prettiest f'n eyes I've ever seen. All blue and loverly. And his hair was blondish like Kurt's and he was all scrawny and he looked...omg just like him. It was so weird.
Anywho, now I'm home waiting for my mo to get home. She's taking me to get clothing.
At 7 my dad's calling and me and the mo are gonna talk to him about me moving back and whatnot. Cuz I think I'm staying here. I was thinking about it for like 3 hours in bed last night. Then I had a dream about dolphins and Andrew was in it and we had to take boats instead of busses. And I guess one day I fell off the boat and I was like waiting for Andrew to like jump off the end of the boat and rescue me but he never did and I got ate by a dolphin. Then only my head and my arm were still alive so we swam over to the dock thing where you wait for a boat and I looked allllll around but no boats were coming. So I jumped onto a dolphin and we swam away.
I have alot of money. Tomorrow I'm going to the mall and Beast Buy I think. Haha beast. Woops.
My hand smells like reefah! Fucking fuck. Ew cigars have the worst smell ever.
Tomorrow me, Lindsay, Jordan, & Chad are suppose to meet up before 2nd period and go smoke. But we smoked all the weed today. So I dunno what were gonna do. Oh well.
All right well I gotta go scrub the hands to get the smell away. It kind of smells bad. Kind of like the smokey bagina juice hahaha. Nevermind.
Update later <3

Mon, 10 May 2004 23:30:44 GMT

:O Me & Andrew have been going out for 6 months today.
Unless you count those couple weeks in February. But shut up.
6 months. That's the longest I've ever gone. I'm so proud of myself haha.
I love you kid <3

Capillary hint of red

Mon, 10 May 2004 23:13:39 GMT

My rose is all blooming and it's big. And by rose I mean actual rose. Get your minds out of the gutter.
Last night I went to my g-mo's crib and we partied there with some uncles, cousins, etc. Me, Steph, & Rod had our own spesh little band or w/e. Me on bass, Steph on keyboard, & Rod on guitar. It was cool because we played Desperado good as f'n hell hah. Sah-weet. Also I had beer. Good Canadian non watered down beer. Then I got a head ache.
Today was an ok day. I had a supply teacher in every class. EVERY ONE. Ms. Mcvey went into labor last night!!! Woot! She would of had it on Lauren's bday//mother's day but it was born today instead. School was super boring today. SUPER. After school me and Andrew stayed to watch the rugby game or something but we didn't watch any of it. We just like sat on a picnic table and sleeped (slept?). Then we went to the bus stop and had to wait like an hour for his bus to come. Shtuuuuuff. Yeah...iono. We had fun.
My stupid step mo gave me a Best Buy gift card thing for my bday and me & BJ were reading it in geography and it said something about any US Best Buy. Stupid step mo.
Tomorrow we got a half-ish day. We get out after 3rd period. I gotta stay with Lindsey though so she can do her business. Andrew: stay with me too. :)
Want to go shopping tomorrow. Or maybe tonight. I should go see if my Best Buy thing still works. Probably not, but it's worth a shot?
Well Imma go convince me mo to drive me places.
Late.

Sun, 09 May 2004 02:24:56 GMT

So. It's my birthday. Holler.
Today I woke up, got some more monies and stuff that my mom thinks is cool hah. Some of it's all right, but yanno. She's whack. So then my pops called and we talked. I informed him that Tanfeet(guinea pig in Florida)'s bday was yesterday. He was just like "*quiet* I should prolly tell you that she died yesterday." and I was all like "on her birthday? wtf is this!?". Sux0rz. So we talked for a while, I talked to Pat & Rusty too. Then I went to Andrew's. Chilled over there for a bit, Lindsey picked us up and we went to Blair. Lindsay was there too. Took a bus to Rideau and walked around. Fun fun fun. I ate my first beaver tail. It was all right...it's like a funnel cake but funnel cakes are way better. Then we all got shit for Mother's Day and stuuuuff. Walked around some more. Andrew got me a rose :) it is loverly. Then we all went home. I chilled and ate a bunch of candy that Lindsey & Lindsay got me today hah. Like Fun Dips. Who remembers those? I haven't had one of those things in like 3 years probably. And those Ouch bandaid gum things. Haha soo good. Anywho, now I'm just chillen. Bored as f'n hell! Was gonna do something with Andrew, but it's too late and whatnot.
All right well I guess I'm out. Funna go find something to do. Laaaate.

Sat, 08 May 2004 04:10:55 GMT

Yeees. Good day mates.
At school in the morning the power was out. It was pretty scary in the halls. I had to use Nicole's cell light to open my freakin locker. It was crazy. Good ass grabbing conditions though hah. School was really nothing to even update about. Boring as shit. But Leigh got me some orgasm cookies from the caf for my birthday hah. And BJ got me a rose (it was fake but it doesn't matter. I told him I wanted one or I'd cry so he got me one at the last minute haha) too. Andrew got all pissed off and stomped on it and ripped it up. What a little shit. Oh well it's all good.
After school me, Lauren, & Lindsey went to Place to catch the bus to Lauren's. We had to wait a while so we went to the mall and took pictures in one of those little booth things. They turned out soo bad, but it was fun. Lauren: Give me the third one. So then we went to Lauren's hung around there for a while, watched Van Wilder, then everybody else showed up. We ate and talked and watched Grease. Then somebody whipped out the body markers so we had fun with those for a while. Goooood stuff. Then Lauren opened her presents and Emily got her condoms. We had some in house virgins so we had to open one and show them haha. Then we put it on a banana and made it orgasm. We just like squeezed all the crap out of the banana and played with it for a while. The condom had spermicide on it so we went in the basement and disinfected the spermy couch haha. Then it broke and banana went everywhere. 'twas funnah. Then we found Andrew (Lauren's brother)'s HUGE collection of Magic cards. We had to take pictures of that fore shore. Then we talked to Joel on speaker phone for a while. I guess we all kind of left after that.
It was a pretty fun night I must say.
Happy Birthday Shawn!
Hey guys! Guess what! In 11 minutes, I'll be 15 :D:D:D:D This is terrific!
Oh my garsh I cannot believe it!
Tomorrow I'm going downtown with people. Woot for having bday money.
Pics of tonight down thurr.

Lauren getting maked up by Lindsey. Emily on the couch.

The Lindsey.

Lauren and Lindsey.

Miss Ficara. Emily on the couch and Grease on the tv vision.

Lindsey's back. Lauren writing "I want to f*** Lauren".

Lindsay making freckles on Lauren's face.

Lauren. Haha me & Lindsay did a good job with the eyes on the eyelids, I must say :D.

Lindsey//Emily sticking "The Banana" down Heather's throat.

Lindsey and her banana. Jen & Emily on the couch laughing.

Emily on the telephizzle for shizzle. My nizzle.

The banana condom popped and Lindsey & Lauren laughed.

Lauren making some weird face.

Condom popped. Lindsey & Emily laughing.

Lindsay laughing at all the Magic cards.

It's kind of like the 8th world wonder. Lindsay & Heather with "The Cards".

*Heavenly music*

Lindsey's stomache after me & Miss Ficara finished hah.

Now wasn't that fun?
That took me so long that it is now officially my birthday! Holler back homie!
Late.

Fri, 07 May 2004 02:20:31 GMT

Pretty good day.
Well math was boring as hell. He just rambled on about stupid shit that we don't even need to know till like grade 12. Wuh'evaaa. Gym we played bball again. Ghey. Lunch, went to Gabriel's with Lindsey, Lauren, & Robyn. Then we went to GT Boutique and got candy. Then back to skoo'. Geography we watched a movie about global warming. I fell asleep...didn't take notes like we were suppose to. Oh well. French was stupid as usual. Just sat around and did work. I wrote out the lyrics to a bunch of songs in my agenda to pass the time. Just shows how damn boring that class is. After school me & Andrew went to ze rugby game. Boys were playing first so we "watched" that for a bit. Then we went to BK with Sidiqi but then him & Andrew decided to go to Loblaws instead. I didn't feel like walking that far so I went back. Me & BJ went to the library to try and do some of our geography summative thing that's due tomorrow but we were like ...no. We walked around for a bit, went back to the school, watched the girl's rugby game. Iono it was pretty boring. Andrew & Sid came back so we chilled for a while. Then me, Andrew, & Lindsey went to the skate park, found Jordan, we all went our separate ways. I came home, I was suppose to go tanning but I stayed at the school for too long so that was a big fat no. Then I was gonna go to Lindsey's inline game but I decided against it because I'm lazy as whoa. I did some of my geography, I still gotta write up the bibliographwoihsfods thing though. I gotta finish that very soon or Mr. Neufeld's gonna rape me tomorrow.
Speaking of tomorrow, Lauren's party. I'm gonna have to get her present Saturday when we all go downtown though cuz I have no time.
Andrew's not going to the damn cottage :D woot. I think it's gonna be a good birthday. It better be.
Anyways, the Friends finale was just on. Too f'n predictable.
I think I'm gonna have to start chillen with Jordan more. His birthmark on his head is awesome. It's amazing how much he reminds me of Kyle too. I was thinking about that today. Which got me thinking about how almost everyone I've ever known in Florida has like a "twin" up here. It's pretty cool. I don't think I have one though =/ oh well it's all good.
If I don't get a rose//pretty flower tomorrow for my early bday or w/e, I'm gonna be pretty sad.
All right well I really gotta do my geography shit. Update later. <3